Last Few Weeks

Sorry i haven't posted in a few weeks. I have really been struggling since my steroids have kicked in. I have been so hungry and had roid rage. All i want to do is eat and yell at everyone. I started gaining weight and i was mad at myself because i know I'm not eating the right foods. Then i started feeling really tired and eating worse. The vicious cycle started and i couldn't pull myself out of it. I was able to get my steroid cut in half and I'm hoping this will help me get back on tract.

Travis and i were able to go to Gainesville for the Florida vs Tennessee game all by ourselves. It was amazing. Our friends took Gavin all weekend and that was a feet in it self, thanks SK and Chad. We got the dog covered, the kids, and had such a great weekend together. We were able to see friends, stay out until 10 (it felt like midnight), and sleep until 9. It was heavenly. Travis and i realized that we really need to do this more often. It is so great that we have such great friends.

On Monday we received word that my lyphnodes are in fact cancer free. Now i just have to work on my liver. The tumor is still the same size, but not bigger. We are both very happy with this news. So again, thank you all for the money to help us battle this together.

The bad news is my heart is getting weaker and weaker. I feel conflicted, I may beat the cancer but then have a very bad heart. I know living with a weak heart is better than the alternative, but it does concern me. What if i cant run ever again, what if i am in danger of having a heart attack, will i get so weak that i feel tired all the time. These are my concerns and it is very scary to think what is saving my life could also be killing me.

Hoping for a better week