Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Great Weekend

This weekend my friend flew me up to Milwaukee and we had a great time. It may be my new favorite city in September, thanks Jodie and Matt. Coincidentally we went down to the lake and saw all the walkers for the 3 day. They had huge pink fountains so that was an added bonus. We are going to try and pick a fall marathon for next year, very excited and start a girls trip in the spring so we can see each other more often, YEAH. I got the kids some "cheese" shirts and i had to get a Packers shirt. Very disappointed that the only Favre stuff left was on the clearance rack, but he did play great this weekend sorry to all my SF fans. Anyways we have a few more trips planned this year and it has been so great to travel since i put that all on hold the last two years. I miss my friends. My 20 year reunion is coming up so that will be lots of fun. Most of these people i haven't see since my 10 year or since graduation since i live 3000 miles away. Were also going to get to see my friend Gavin and go to the Monterrey Bay Aquarium. Cant wait. Anyways, feeling good, just tired. Just read about an 8 year girl named Lily who was diagnosed with stage IV neuroblastoma (sp) it is also in her brain, bones and abdomen. Please keep her in your prayers.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Last Few Weeks

Sorry i haven't posted in a few weeks. I have really been struggling since my steroids have kicked in. I have been so hungry and had roid rage. All i want to do is eat and yell at everyone. I started gaining weight and i was mad at myself because i know I'm not eating the right foods. Then i started feeling really tired and eating worse. The vicious cycle started and i couldn't pull myself out of it. I was able to get my steroid cut in half and I'm hoping this will help me get back on tract.

Travis and i were able to go to Gainesville for the Florida vs Tennessee game all by ourselves. It was amazing. Our friends took Gavin all weekend and that was a feet in it self, thanks SK and Chad. We got the dog covered, the kids, and had such a great weekend together. We were able to see friends, stay out until 10 (it felt like midnight), and sleep until 9. It was heavenly. Travis and i realized that we really need to do this more often. It is so great that we have such great friends.

On Monday we received word that my lyphnodes are in fact cancer free. Now i just have to work on my liver. The tumor is still the same size, but not bigger. We are both very happy with this news. So again, thank you all for the money to help us battle this together.

The bad news is my heart is getting weaker and weaker. I feel conflicted, I may beat the cancer but then have a very bad heart. I know living with a weak heart is better than the alternative, but it does concern me. What if i cant run ever again, what if i am in danger of having a heart attack, will i get so weak that i feel tired all the time. These are my concerns and it is very scary to think what is saving my life could also be killing me.

Hoping for a better week