Nashville

Trav and I are on our way to Nashville to see a doctor about the T-DM1 trial. We have to drive 9 hours for a one hour meeting. Travis was not happy. Since we had hours of time to kill I decided to converse with my husband. Not something we do very often. In the last 4 months our relationship has been even more strained with every bad report we get. The worse the news the more stressed, unsure and withdrawn Travis gets. It's been hard to figure all this out but thinking my wife is going to dye, our savings is gone, the less money i make the closer to death she is, I have two kids I am responsible for, and i will be alone must all be terrifying. I can't even comprehend what goes thru his head on a good day much less that live revolves around me. He can ask any thing of me, I'm tired, I'm not the same person he married and there isn't anything except time that will come out of this. The sad part for me is it is difficult for him to enjoy the now since he is so concerned about the future. I pray everyday God will give him the grace he has given me to deal with all this. What good is time if I don't have him emotionally. That is what I need prayers for. With him I can do anything. 

Will post tomorrow what Dr. Yardley has to say. 

BTW we had a chance to have a free trip from the Jack and Jill foundation to Hawaii but can't go. So sad

Results

We'll not what we had hoped. Chemo has once again failed me at the 6 month scan. I see the doc on Thursday to find out what chemo is left. Hopefully the side effects will be manageable.

Awesome Vaca

We just spent a week in Lake Tahoe, my niece turned 21, and my friends thru me a surprise birthday party in Sacto. It was very hard to come back to reality. I have chemo tomorrow and a PET scan so we shall see if this chemo will hold. I tolerate it fairly well so i would love to get good results. Not to mention i have never had a chemo last more than 3 months. Will post when i get results back.

Day after chemo

I forgot how crappy I feel the next day. I promised Travis I would help clean the basement and besides my head pounding every joint/muscle in my body hurts. I don't have any wheatgrass so that may be my main problem. I get some thursday but I should feel better by then anyways. Cheers

Beach, Birthday, Reunion...

We had such a great week. It was relaxing, fun, and I ran every morning on the beach. It was by far the best weather we have ever had down there and we had such a good time. Grandma Babs and Grandpa George came over for two nights, Ya Ya (nanny) was a huge help, and our friends came two nights. We had a great time with all our friends that come every year and of course my birthday was the best ever. It was the first time in a year that I drank and I made up for lost time. I thought I would be in the bathroom by 9 PM not feeling my best but I hung until 4 AM. Yeah for me! So many people wished me well, gave me cards, cool gifts, and Travis gave me the camera I have been wanting forever. It was fun meeting all of Travis' classmates (20 year reunion) and seeing old friends.

Overall our vacation was fabulous, turning 40 was awesome, and the reunion was a big success. Cant wait for the next 40 years.

So excited

This weekend channel 2 interviewed me for the news and since then I have had so many people ask for help. I am so excited that I get to help others because you are all helping me. I love this "pay it forward stuff"
Yeah

Come join us for Pizza on July 10th. Can't wait